When he calls you, ignore the hundreds of ropes untangling themselves in your stomach. You are the best friend again. When he invites you for dinner, say yes too easily. Remind yourself this isn’t special.
It’s only dinner.
Everyone has to eat.
When he greets you at the door, do not think you are the reason he wore cologne.
Someone told you once, a soulmate is not the person who makes you the happiest, but the person who makes you feel the most…who conducts your heart to bang the loudest, who can drag you giggling with forgiveness from the cellar they locked you in.
It has always been him.
In his kitchen, he will hand feed you a piece of red pepper. His laugh will be low and warm and it will make you feel like candlelight. Do not think this is special. Do not count on your fingers the number of freckles you could kiss too easily. Try to think of pilot lights or olive oil, not everything you have ever loved about him, or it will suddenly feel boiling, and possible, and so close.
If you’re sad, add more lipstick and attack.